7/24/2023 0 Comments Best pfp for tiktok![]() ![]() But you are so worthy, and if you ever forget that self-love is the most important, know you have my love too. It’s hard, and sometimes it’s uncomfortable. When the world gets too noisy and too hateful, I beg you to turn your music up louder, dance harder, smile wider, and love yourself no matter what anybody else says. We are made to feel ugly in our most natural states, and then we’re gaslit when we call out the multitude of appropriations of our culture as if it isn’t ours to claim in the first place. To my fellow beautiful Black women, this world is unkind to our authenticity. So here’s a photo dump of me and the ol’ cueball, in all her 4C glory. I did it for her, she’s the only person I’ll be looking to please from this moment forward. But I know young Celia would be proud of me. It’s a work in progress, and I fall in and out of love with it all the time. Now don’t get me wrong, I still love my wigs, and I will wear them when I want to, but feeling beautiful without them is new. It became clear that in order for me to support my Black family, I need to support myself. Then Rona hit, and I had to face my Blackness on a whole new level. I was ashamed of it, and turned to comedy if anyone ever asked about it. ![]() I loved it, and when I started wearing wigs, I noticed that the saddest part of my day was taking my wig off, and having to deal with my natural hair. After years of crochet braids, the thick curly bob and bangs became my look. And by middle school, I begged my mother to give me extensions, thinking that would “solve the problem”. My hair was one of my greatest insecurities, I was bullied for it relentlessly in elementary school. As a Black woman, so much of my self worth is tied to my hair at a young age. So I decided not to post about it until I was comfortable. I thought about doing it for a while before then (shout out but I was always too scared of what other people would think about it, and how it would affect my relationship with my Blackness and my “femininity”. Exercise doesn’t have to be a slog or a punishment if you don’t want it to be, and it definitely doesn’t have to be about your appearance ☺️⚡️#fitness#health#exercise#dance#football#femalefootball#dancer - on Instagram I think it’s important to exercise, but it’s most important to find your thing. I f**king love dancing and meeting my mates every week for a kick about. ![]() The truth is, I do exercise, I dance (to tiktoks□) and I play football twice a week but I just never class it as exercise because it’s not a chore. I find myself now saying ‘I haven’t done any exercise in ages’ and I only realised the other day that it’s because I still associate exercise with slaving away doing something I really don’t enjoy. I don’t regret that time, I needed to go through to learn from it for sure. Years ago I’d have taken #Nationalfitnessday as a chance to post my abs and a back breaking booty pose with a caption like ‘you don’t get what you wish for you get what you work for’ □ because back then I didn’t have much else to show for myself and my life other than my image and my dedication to fitness and ‘eating clean’.
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